Sometimes Being me is a Pain in the Ass (May 6, 2007)

Current mood:lonely

I know this. I'm VERY aware of it. I put myself in some really stupid situations. And when you ask me why, I'm the girl that says, "I don't know."  I mean, I don't go out of my way to do these things. But at the same time, they don't just randomly happen, either. I see what I do, sometimes. Like I'm not even a part of the situation, just an observer, and I can see myself making these stupid, stupid blunders in my life, and I (in my head of course. Most of the time....) yell at myself, "What the fuck are you doing?! You know that's going to come back and bite you in the ass later!! (This last bit can also be replaced with, "...thats a bad idea!!",  "...thats going to hurt you bad later!!", "...thats illegal!", ".... thats right, be a damn fool!!") But then I always end up doing it anyway. I guess if I come out of this life knowing one thing and one thing only, its that I can rationalize ANYTHING, no matter how retarded it is. I can make myself think its a good idea. So, cheers to that. Heh.

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