Stuff. Moody. Mostly Sad. (Aug 25, 2007)

Current mood:depressed

I have so much crap on my mind right now. Like OMG....

Red Vault? Fucking delicious.
Why is my door open a bit?  *gets up. Closes door.*
God's a jerk for giving chicks cramps.
25 ways NOT to say "I love you"
I really hate wearing pants.
It boggles my mind that people really do fuck animals. Wow....
Other people's blog things are fascinating sometimes.
I miss Trent and Lauren.
What am I doing? I mean, really? What?
Can I be happy for him and bummed that hes leaving at the same time? Cuz I am.
I should get some porn on here....
I need to work on my miniatures some more.
I need to get off my fat ass! ARGH!!!
I'm pissed that there isn't rain right now.
Even though the sun is setting and it looks really pretty.
I'm so fucking SICK of being alone.
SICK
SICK
SICK
Heh, I remeber kissing in the rain outside the bar, and it still makes me melt....
I think I have a rock in my shoe.
Someone knocked over my pepper plant outside.  Damn.
My cycle timing has me SO pissed.... OMG.....
I should have called Mom today.
I miss Dad.
I miss Mike Cartwright, too.  Damn he was awesome.
I'm starting to wonder if maybe I'm just this sort of person....
I have a deep rooted apathy and I don't think its' good for me....
Why DO bad things happen to good people?
And why do the asshole in life seem to get it all?
I feel bad avoiding my Grandparents, but I hate hearing about how horrible I am.
*Sigh* He can't call, but I wish he'd text.
My life really isn't that fucked. Why all the stress?
God, I hate politics....
I never thought I'd be sick of ramen, but I almost am.
Some hot guy just walked past my door. Huh.
Does he know what I mean when I tell him I hate him?
I miss my bar.
I kinda wish I lived back at home.
Mom still wants me to marry Josh Hopkins, but Good God, WHY?
I really really love that mirror that Dan gave me. I really do.
When's Keri coming home? I haven't seen her in ages. :(
LUKE! You stole my roomate!
"I don't have time" is about the lamest one I've heard yet and I think it was a lie.
I'm REALLY glad I washed the furnature covers after I got them.
Being a girl is stupid. 
I wish I was as cold-hearted as I need to be to deal with stuff sometimes.
I'm glad I'm not, though, in a way.
I kinda miss doing drugs.... 
I should really vaccuum the ceiling by the fan.
I am TERRIFIED of making thing worse than they are.
I never really thought about how easy being a runnaway is compared to NOT.
I talked dude into going back to his girlfriend, even though we liked each other.
Well, that was stupis, wasn't it...?
What would have happened if John had never gone back to Texas?
Does everyone think things like this?
MY GOD, I need a drink right now....
I think I'm gonna text Rick and see what he's doing.
I shouldn't.
I want another tattoo.
And I think I want another piercing, too.
What's Sigrid up to?
OK, I think I've got most of it out now.... and I dwelled on some of it and now I feel like shit. Awesome. I think what I want more than anything in the whole world right now is to be able to call Dad and talk to him for a few before making up my mind to go visit for a while. I love my Mom and I love Bill and Sigrid and everyone (mostly) in my family, but no one could ever cheer me up like Dad.  I need a Dad hug, and I'll never get one again. I want to hear one of his fishing stories. Or one of his work stories. Or about when he was growing up and some of the stupid shit he did. Anything, really.  Through all the crap, Dad could always make me smile and I miss that more than anything. Damnit.