The Spiderweb Dreams (July 6, 2008)

Current mood:betrayed

My heart breaks with dawns past and sunsets lost. I think back this morning as I'm riding my rad little homie bike home, about all the times. I can really end the sentence there...  
Do you remember the time that the three of us stayed up, drunk as shit, until the wee early hours of the morning, quoting Fire Marshall Bill? 
Do you remember when we walked through the park, only to lie on our backs underneath the bridge and try to figure out the colors in the sky? 
Were you there when we sat around on picnic tables, waiting for the liquor store to open in the morning so we could continue with our shenanigans in a more unruly fashion? 
How long ago was it that I went to your house in the dead of night on a night off JUST so that we could hang out and play Magic, only to find that I no longer wanted to ride my bike all the way back home and you drove me instead? 
Do you remember me sneaking in to your house almost as soon as your Dad was out of sight on his way to work so that we could sleep or hang out because it was cold in my abandoned house and you only lived a block away? 
How many times did we wake up after a hard night of partying at Gary's house, just as the dawn was breaking, the dew still on the grass, and smoke out on the porch, just watching the sky and feeling the crispness in the air? 
Where have these days gone? Why is it that no matter how hard I want, I know I'll never get them back. There will never be anything close to that time. 
When I walk outside my imprisoning store to go home in the morning on mornings like this, the sky still grey with sleep, the air fresh after the cleansing night, I feel the cool air on my skin and the wind in my face as I ride home, and I think back on these things, the most memorable times in my life, and a part of me wishes that I could give everything back, start brand new. Because no matter how much I love where I am or who or what I'm doing, it will never be the same and I will never get that back. 

Time, you're a cruel miser and I hate you.