A Big Ol Butt-Load of Crap (Nov 1, 2006)

Current mood:lonely

Ah, bloggins. I don't think I'll be bitching in this one much. I have stuff I could bitch about, but really I bitch about it all the time already, so I don't think I'll do it online today. I am very psyched about Jason coming back to town. I'm also all worked up about him maybe getting that job so that hes in town every weekend. That will be awesome. I will probably end up breaking my lease. I mean, I'm not going to be all shitty about it, but if iI have the opprotunity to rent a house anstead of an apartment, I'm going to do so. Rob sent me a text the other day. I would say that it was "out of the blue," but the night before, Baker called and talked to me a little bit, so while I wasn't quite expecting THAT immediate of a reaction, I knew one was coming. We did really well over the texts. Very civil, though laden with barbs and sarcasm. It was like back in the day. It was ok. He said he wanted to sit down and talk with me, which I agreed to on the terms that he not be a shit-head. He wanted to come to my place to do this and I told him no. I said "I don't really think I feel comfortable with you knowing where I live at this point." I could tell that ticked him off, but oh well. I don't really want him knowing where I live yet. We met up at his house. Baker was there as acting mediator. Lol. Baker rules. I think for the most part his mediation was unneeded, though, as we were both very civil to each other. Yes, of course I made several remarks that were just laden with poison, but i thought it was called for. One of the only times I got really good and irritated with him was when he brought up Dan. "Well, you need to figure out a way to make that right." (He's all about atonement right now....) I said I did not have to make it right. I siad, yes, Dan is my friend, but I don't control what he says or does. That's not what friends do. So Rob goes on about, I don't know, hunting down Dan's family and all that bullshit. I just looked at him like he was stupid. There was soething in there about trying to make Dan come after HIM, too, but I can't remember all of it. I think it was something along the lines of blacking my eye and then telling Dan about it and that it was his fault or some such crap as that. I told him that was a stupid idea and that if he made any remote threat to my physical person again, I was going to walk right out the door. I said, "I will not be having that. That was a threat if ever I heard one and I won't be threatened." He kinda shut up about that. He's still convinced that we are going to get back together. I don't think i have said "no" that many times in a single day for a long time. Gah. Its very frustrating. One day, hopefully, he will get it through his head that friends is all we are ever going to be. And if he can't accept that, then tough. Thats just the way the world is sometimes. Fuck, everyone has to deal with shit like that. Its not just him. He kept telling me, "Oh, you have no idea how bad you messed me up. You broke my heart. Etc." Yeah, well. Hate to seem cold and callous, but that's life.Anyway, I might come back to this. I have to go now before I get caught. This is dumb as hell, all this trying to sneak some puter time in between my 6 hours of free time at work. Ugh....